Prologue

1.)

I guess it all started with the whole concept that the grass is always greener on the other side. It must have started in early adolescence. And it is funny how your mind has a way of creating something remarkable out of speculation. So there I sat, mindlessly staring at a computer screen that was buzzing numbers and graphs that stopped making sense to me a long time ago. I was browsing the web when i stumbled upon an ad for cheap air fare. One hundered and twenty five dollars for a ticket to Los Angeles.

2.)

It was the time of the economic stimulus check. Where two weeks ago I was counting change from the pillows to afford the two western cheeseburger deal from the local fast food joint to get dinner...Tonight I'm sitting at the largest casino room in Los Angeles. Scared money never makes none.

3.)

A lonely morning in a dingy Hollywood apartment. With needles and images distortions of what 'is' and what 'appears to be'. A trap. Like a mouse you sit in a bad psychological experiment gone bad. Best way to get sober is to go broke, look at yourself in the mirror and realize youre a joke. Without thinking, you pack everything, take the money, run.

4.)

Trainride to San Diego is beautiful. Something about the Pacific Ocean and the sun erases any kind of stress. When you step off the train, you feel the pure air. You can almost swim in the precipitation, and when it finally comes to be when you can drop your bags and float off into the ocean you have to wonder if you ever will swim back in.